Let's waste time
Chasing Cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
to remind me
to find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Chasing Cars
by Snow Patrol

A lot can happen in a year.

I just hope that when I become old, I won't be the stereotypical old person.  I want to be physically healthy.  I want to have as good of a reaction time as I do now.  I want to continue to enjoy life, retired or not.  I don't want age to slow me down.  Because I've discovered in this past year, that there's always something that I haven't done yet.  And for that reason alone, I have to do it.

I wish I hadn't wasted so much time.

/Edit: I had a nasty little dream. It wasn't a nightmare because I wasn't afraid.  It felt more real than anything else... I went to look for my friends at their respective homes... but when I get there, all the houses were different.  Strange people occupied them, doing everyday things that seemed foreign to me.  I couldn't find anyone I knew.  I think the problem with having a diverse group of friends is that you don't really get to spend enough time with any of them.  As Evan once put it, "Once you get a girlfriend, you disappear." I didn't think about it too much at the time cause I was high on LoveCD.  But then I think back to all the people I haven't seen all summer.  Evan, Linh, Jeff (sorta), etc.... don't get me wrong, I love being in a relationship, it brings me happiness and comfort.  But I'm not the kinda guy to want to make sacrifices if they can be avoided.  And so... hopefully I'll allocate my time more properly amongst my beloveds - all of them. 

Well good god, life just got more complicated today.  In the generation of people livin in the fastlane, I'm finding all the greater need and desire to just pull over on the side of the road and just watch things go by, but in slow motion so I don't miss any of it.  I just wanna relax, this vacation has been more stressful than finals week of Spring '06... doesn't make much sense does it?  Hope things improve when my car arrives.  Wish me, and the rest of the world luck.

Does anyone else think it's messed up that girls can always get other guys, but guys have to fight to get the girls?  I'm just glad that I found my girl, and that she's stickin w/ me.  Love ya hunny! =D Cya in the mornin' and make sure to slap me around to wake me up or something =P.... sigh, time for rest, it's been a long day.

Oh, I've also been very behind on birthdays and whatnot, and I do plan to make it up.  I just ain't too sure how yet... but I'll think of something.  But sorry to those I missed and happy bday to Frank cause his is today... wait fux... it was 2 hours ago, damnit... w/e I'll make it up once I get el automobile... I hope.

It is done.  2007 Mazda CX-7 AWD Grand Touring Automatic w/ Technology Package.

 Exterior: Brilliant Black Clearcoat
Interior: Black GT Leather

It's not as fancy as the white one w/ pearlescent paint, but the Black with chrome highlights does nicely.  Elegant, powerful, "sexay" and so on.  The exterior is echoed by the interior, as the black leather dominates the cabin space with aluminum highlights surrounding controls and so on and so forth.  Here's to a long run: Black Chariot!

(Note: Naming is still tentative, and is done only in respects to those who have fallen before us. Subject to change.)

Sometimes I feel
like I am drunk behind the wheel
the wheel of possibility
however it may roll
give it a spin
see if you can somehow factor in
you know there's always more than one way
to say exactly what you mean to say

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an INDICATION
it was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
so quiet but i finally woke up
if you're sad then it's time you spoke up too (x2)

Was I out of my head? Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an INVITATION
it was hard to find
Don't matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
so quiet but i finally woke up
if you're sad then it's time you spoke up too

Out of My Head - Fastball